Why is life so difficult to live?

Why is life so difficult to live? I have so much in my mind right now that I just do not know where do I begin and where do I end. People may look at your life and find it very beautiful and full of happiness but in reality only the wearer knows where the shoe pinches. And here I am not just talking about myself but may be on behalf of many others caught in an unexplainable and intricate situation.

I have always believed that all of us have likes and dislikes and most of the times very strong desires and they are our very own only. Then how come is it that we have no control or rather people control what we should like or dislike. Why do people get judgmental about how we should be living and what is the right way or the wrong way. Everybody is here to talk about their personal experiences and ready to give all the advice on what we should be doing. My problem is that I don’t want to know what they experienced and whether I should be having the same set of experiences as they have had. I want to do something when I really believe in it and when I really want to do it and not because somebody else thinks this is how it should be done.

I am unique in my own way and I don’t want people to act as a critic on that. I am what I am and I love to live my life my way. But people dictate even the way you want to live. I have never understood lessons on “you live in a society and this is what you should be doing, this is what the society expects you to do and what will the society say if you do or don’t do such a thing.” What perplexes me is that I am doing what I should be doing to live in a society. I am not going around and killing people, or abusing them or breaking the law, basically nothing to cause any remotely possible harm. Then why the interference?

All I wish is to live in peace and let my choices decide what I want to do rather than what I should do because somebody else expects it. I want to take responsibility for my own decisions and never want to lose my identity and self of being. I am still hoping someday it will really be either my way or no way at all…. Touchwood!!

Thought for the mood
“Life is like a beautiful melody, only the lyrics are messed up.”
(And get messier…)

“I think somehow we learn who we really are and then live with that decision.”
(I want to live with my decisions too or atleast begin with making them myself)